good morning {03.24.12} | traces of yellow green on this rainy morn by Lori Paquette
The Only Way Through
The most profound journey we will ever take is the journey to our Self.
Eventually we come to an impasse, a space where the apparent truth points to a defective Self. Here, we begin a cycle: If I am defective, there must be someone or something that can fix me. And we search for that someone or that something that will heal what feels broken or empty inside.
Yet this vicarious love, unfortunately, turns out to be unfulfilling every time. And once again, we find ourselves at an impasse, perhaps feeling more broken than before. So we begin again, canvassing the world for a way through the loneliness.
The reality is, you won’t find it out there — because self-love is the only way through. Self-love is the ocean that all rivers of connection flow from and return to. It’s the resolution to our grainy perception of Self. Without self-love, we are hungry for food that we cannot digest.
You won’t find self-love in a lover. You won’t find it in a friend, or in a subculture, and you won’t even find it in your spirituality.
You’re only gonna find self-love in the unconditional acknowledgement of Yourself as the unstruck, beating heart of All That Is. The limitlessness of Being that you lost connection with somewhere along the way.
Look at a photo, or envision yourself as a small child. You were endless, there. You were innocent. Can you look back at that child and fault them for anything? Is that child not worthy of your love and kindness?
That child is You, before you took on any ideas of brokenness. These ideas are illusions, like looking through a broken window. You are not the window. You are the fullness inside. You are that child. Love yourself there.
Let this insight fill you up and wash over you. You are the fullness inside.
You are the beauty of creation. You are a phenomenon of Being, and a Being of purpose. Don’t let ideas of smallness or brokenness blind you to the truth of who You are.
This is where your most significant experience of Love truly begins... this is the only way through the impasse of your perceived defectiveness. Where you go from here is your journey and your joy.
Open your eyes, beautiful one, and see yourself. Begin here.
The most profound journey we will ever take is the journey to our Self.
Eventually we come to an impasse, a space where the apparent truth points to a defective Self. Here, we begin a cycle: If I am defective, there must be someone or something that can fix me. And we search for that someone or that something that will heal what feels broken or empty inside.
Yet this vicarious love, unfortunately, turns out to be unfulfilling every time. And once again, we find ourselves at an impasse, perhaps feeling more broken than before. So we begin again, canvassing the world for a way through the loneliness.
The reality is, you won’t find it out there — because self-love is the only way through. Self-love is the ocean that all rivers of connection flow from and return to. It’s the resolution to our grainy perception of Self. Without self-love, we are hungry for food that we cannot digest.
You won’t find self-love in a lover. You won’t find it in a friend, or in a subculture, and you won’t even find it in your spirituality.
You’re only gonna find self-love in the unconditional acknowledgement of Yourself as the unstruck, beating heart of All That Is. The limitlessness of Being that you lost connection with somewhere along the way.
Look at a photo, or envision yourself as a small child. You were endless, there. You were innocent. Can you look back at that child and fault them for anything? Is that child not worthy of your love and kindness?
That child is You, before you took on any ideas of brokenness. These ideas are illusions, like looking through a broken window. You are not the window. You are the fullness inside. You are that child. Love yourself there.
Let this insight fill you up and wash over you. You are the fullness inside.
You are the beauty of creation. You are a phenomenon of Being, and a Being of purpose. Don’t let ideas of smallness or brokenness blind you to the truth of who You are.
This is where your most significant experience of Love truly begins... this is the only way through the impasse of your perceived defectiveness. Where you go from here is your journey and your joy.
Open your eyes, beautiful one, and see yourself. Begin here.
 | Daniel Collinsworth is a teacher and cloud watcher. He has a blog called Metta Drum where he shares insights on compassion, oneness, healing and freedom. You can connect with him on Facebook and Twitter. |
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12 comments:
This is beautiful Daniel, you're so right on! This reminds me of a chapter I wrote in a book that I have still not done anything with, but the child-comparisons and some of the stuff you said was scary in-synch. :) But that does not surprise me, because all clear inspiration comes from essentially the same place - the "fullness inside" as you have put it (I also put it that way, because that's how it feels!!) Anyway - just full of truth and beauty as usual and I especially loved: "You’re only gonna find self-love in the unconditional acknowledgement of Yourself as the unstruck, beating heart of All That Is. The limitlessness of Being that you lost connection with somewhere along the way." - gorgeous! you rock Daniel. <3
Heya Sunni :) I think envisioning our child self is a good and soulful "alarm clock" that wakes us up from the haziness that we come to identify with as we grow older, all the messy stuff that gets piled on. The child Me is worthy of love, warmth and frequent hugs. "Now" Me is too, even if I have taken on all these other ideas about how worthy I am or am not. It's all just stuff, really, that I can peel back and leave behind me. It's a matter of choice and a matter of work, the business of letting go :)
Love your stuff! Thank you for that.
Beeeeeeeeautiful! amazing :)
This is all sorts of perfect...totally delicious and wondrous.
Word, thanks Jo :)
Glad to hear that :)
Thank you!
Daniel's words are so glorious... how nice to be reminded about our perfection. Thank you so much!
That rocks, thank you Tina :)
Beautiful Post! Thank you !
Thanks Nikky :)
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